Release me from my Substack streak

Break every chain

First of all, everyone make sure you read my podcast announcement!!!! The first episode is out now and you can listen or watch anywhere you get podcasts! I’m going to need y’all to run it up, please! Everyone who said I should have a podcast better listen! I am listening to my fans! lol. Anyways. Be sure to follow 6songs4 on all platforms and rate us 5 stars!!!!!

In the description of every episode, there will be links to donate money to organizations that help Palestine, Haiti, Congo, and Sudan. The more you share the episode make sure to tell your friends about the description!!

P.S. The audio issues will be fixed by the second episode! Reilee’s Mic did not come in time for recording!

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Bob Watch

I haven’t done bob watch in a while! My bad!

First of all my friend Belissa is going to be on a new show with REBA (!!) called Happy Place. They both have bobs so obviously we will all be watching! Kelly Rowland has been rocking this sickening short blonde bob. I can’t believe that Cannes security guard had the nerve to disrespect her. How can you disrespect a woman with a bob like that?

Then we have the Barbie doll Ken rocking this random blunt-ass bob. The earring takes me out. He knew he ate! Then we have Aja Naomi King from How to Get Away with Murder. She looks stunning as always. Joey King……….I mean okay the actual Bob is kind of sickening. But all I will say is, I hope it’s a wig!

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What would happen if I stopped writing every week?

I have published a newsletter every week for 67 weeks which is no small feat. However, it begs the question, is anyone reading? I mean I can see my stats and the answer is yes. But my engagement is lower than I would like, so most of the time, it just feels like I am talking into the void. I know this is how most writers feel so I’m preaching to the choir.

The thing is, it’s starting to feel more like a chore than a hobby. Don’t get me wrong, I love Kiara’s Court and am proud of it. I started this newsletter because I wanted my friends and people to read more. But with my busy schedule and work sometimes I feel stumped on what to write about until I am inspired.

Maybe the problem is, I’ve stopped reading myself. Maybe my relationship with writing is connected to my relationship with reading. Maybe I need the validation of knowing people are reading for it to feel worth the effort. Maybe I am just burnt out and need a break. Who knows?

What I do know is that one thing keeping me going is the weekly email substack sends me to tell me to keep it up.

I don’t get it. My family gave me enough attention as a child. I have plenty of friends. No romantic partner (but I’m working on it.) Why do I need so much validation? I recently started taking piano lessons and besides actually learning how to play an instrument, I love when my teacher tells me I am doing a good job. It makes me feel alive. I realized that the external validation was what made me perform so well in high school. When I got to college and no one cared about my grade but me, I suffered.

The irony is, there probably won’t be many people reading this, thus proving my point. I just don’t know how to separate other people’s laziness from my self-worth. I would love to take a few weeks off to not focus on Kiara’s Court but then I would lose my streak. The problem with the damn streak is for some reason I care. I know it’s dumb but I care! This is the reason that I had to delete Snapchat all those years ago. I cannot be held accountable for a streak. My anxious personality cannot handle that. A streak makes me feel like I cannot break it or I will be in trouble or something. I want to see how long I can keep it up. Then I wonder, why am I making it a marathon?

Maybe it’s because Substack tells me that I am in the top 96% of writers and that makes me feel important. Ugh maybe I just need to win an award of some kind and this will all go away. Who knows? I wasn’t planning on coming to a conclusion in this letter just some thoughts. Hopefully, I will get back to talking about Pop Culture again. I feel like there hasn’t been that much going on that I want to talk about so you’re getting my thoughts!

In the meantime listen to 6 songs 4 and please like and rate it 5 stars!!